Guilt perhaps?
The wages of sin is death.
A former megachurch pastor has died after committing suicide, officials have confirmed.
Darrin Patrick, the founding pastor of The Journey and prior to his death, the teaching pastor at Seacoast Church, died on May 7 in what was initially thought to be a shooting mishap.
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On April 13, 2016, it was announced that the Board of Elders of The Journey had removed Patrick from his position and required him to step down from all internal and external leadership positions. The reasons given were "pastoral misconduct" and a "historical pattern of sin". A letter from the elders made it clear that the misconduct did not involve adultery, but there was a violation of the "high standard for elders in marriage through inappropriate meetings, conversations, and phone calls with two women".
Pastor’s death confirmed by officials as suicide | My Christian Daily