Here is my DAY 32
Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is not promised. Jesus said 'I am'. He did not say 'I was' or ' I want to be'. This truth does not mean we stop growing, but it does mean we simply get in step with Him today. Personally I have spent a couple of months beating myself up asking what I need to do to get where I need to be when suddenly (love those suddenly's :) a few day ago I sensed Him asking me a question, "What makes you sure you are not where I want you to be?" My response ws, "I want to be doing more for the Kingdom" followed by a short list. He responded, 'Then it is not necessarily that you are not where I want you to be but more that you are not where YOU want to be.."
If we focus on where we were or where we want to be, I won't be resting in being in the I AM, which is where I want to be,,Today hear His voice and obey...
So I believe God has been transforming thoughts arising due to this suppressed memory for years, but that negative memory stored in my memory banks was still affecting my motivations even though I had totally forgotten about it and had no idea it could still be affecting my desires negatively...By doing this He has restored my peace and rest...I will continue this path and process but now with a more free and peaceful and joyful expectancy for today...
This process is fascination in that we get uncomfortable or read something that the still small voices says 'linger here'...and if we linger and mediate..
I literally practiced several of the DISCIPLINES being discussed in the Christian Formation thread....Scripture reading, Meditation, Contemplative prayer, Journaling, Solitude...without all of these this would have been left to chance and possibly taken far longer than it needed to...