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    I was a good Christian porn addict

    A gut-wrenching read.


    What I'm going to share with you today may shock those of you who know me. I've always been the "good" girl. Always followed the rules (for the most part). Never did drugs, never snuck out of the house, never got in any real trouble. I was compliant. Eager to please. Teacher's pet. Brown-noser. Girl scout. Church-goer. 2nd chair percussionist in the band. Worship leader.

    All that to say, you're probably not expecting this next one: Porn addict.

    I was exposed to pornography when I was 8 years old, and I quickly became addicted. When other girls my age were playing with barbies and riding their bikes, I was looking at porn. When some kids hid candy from their parents, I hid porn. When other kids were ashamed because they got a bad grade on a test, I was ashamed because I couldn't get the nasty images of people having sex out of my head.

    Filthy. Confused. Ashamed. Embarrassed. Disgusting. There are no words strong enough to accurately describe how I felt. I didn't even know what porn was. I just knew I couldn't get enough of it, even though it always left me feeling dirtier than before.

    I was raised in a good Christian home, with good values and an amazing family. Like I said, I was the "good girl." A rule-follower. Teacher's pet.

    And the best liar around. I had to be. Because a good girl like me wasn't supposed to be addicted to porn.

    Throughout elementary school, middle school, and high school, my access to porn was somewhat limited. Of course, I found plenty of ways to continue my little habit. But it wasn't until college that it became this all-consuming, soul-sucking demon from hell.

    more:
    http://maryhoward.me/2015/09/02/i-wa...n-porn-addict/

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